With my sister pregnant with her first though I am struggling to be happy for her... Here I move into the hardest week of my year and she is celebrating as is my family while I sit alone wondering why ...
Some days I know why...
... Because I am strong enough even when I want to quit
... Because I have friends and family who are by my side through it
... Because it made me change not only my place to live but ultimately my career
... Because I have taught as much as I have leant
... Because every thing happens for a reason
And because I would not be ME without Emelina in my life.
Next week we celebrate her... No fan fare, just Cat and donating birthday kits like last year and doing random acts of kindness. I feel bad but I honestly have no desire to drive to Edmonton and more importantly M is working... We live each day with Emelina in our hearts that is all that matters.
<3 In our hearts forever, Emelina Danyelle, February 21, 2012 <3