My health sucks I have had 10x more headaches/migraines and they make me so miserable because I am always in pain and Advil just does not help...I have trouble sleeping.
NOTHING makes me happy. At work I am killing it... I don't really care... I need to make decision on where I want to in 6 months... I can't.
I am struggling GRIEF SUCKS, having no friends close to me SUCKS... It feels like Everyone has a life so I get forgotten... It was my choice to move I know but I did it to get a new start instead I isolated myself. I don't hold it against anyone but I also don't feel like I have any support.
I sit in my truck crying my eyes out tonight because I am so TIRED of being like THIS. I try and try to find the good, the blessing, the happy and all I see is how much life SUCKS. I don't need a vacation, I don't need a therapist, I don't need to hear it is normal...
I NEED to be over GRIEF, I need a friend.. But since I have neither... I continue to try to fight for some sort of happy...if that ever comes