"EVERY THING HAPPENS FOR A REASON"
"WE ARE ONLY GIVEN WHAT WE CAN MANAGE"
I am also struggling with having the desire to parent Cat. I love her BUT I felt yesterday that I had no energy to deal with her..which means she has been watching way too much TV. Thanks to having a babysitter (while I went to the gym) and a neighbourhood friend of hers she spent the morning and afternoon at the park in the beautiful sunshine. I know I could have called on some friends to watch her but with it being spring break I don't want to add an extra child on to anyone...so instead she has been stuck with me for the past 2 days (to make up for a couple boring days Mariusz and I took her to the pool to swim tonight).
Why me??? I don't think we will ever get an answer....I keep hoping that this will strengthen our family as well as be something that we can use to one day make a difference in someway...how or when I am not sure yet but we will do something, her passing will not be in vain...I should call it a night, I have a busy day tomorrow with a work out, lunch/playdate with my Friend K and then off with Mariusz and Cat to pick out paint so we can redo Cat's room this weekend.